Wah.. my jie jie turning 21 edi lo.. haha..
not gonna write much, gonna post pics instead...
Was so fun during the dinner..
makan, chit-chatting.. laughing at the sesat ppl next door singing karaoke..
haha its fun!!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Melissa's 21ST Birthday Dinner
Wah.. my jie jie turning 21 edi lo.. haha..
not gonna write much, gonna post pics instead...
Was so fun during the dinner..
makan, chit-chatting.. laughing at the sesat ppl next door singing karaoke..
haha its fun!!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Once again...
For the past days,
Once again I had to take it out,
to put on the mask to hide,
to hide what i feel,
to hide the tears that build up everytime,
to make sure nothing is seen.
It worked, the mask,
not a drop of tear was shed,
at least not in front of people,
although it was hard,
the mask was still able,
to shield the real feelings inside,
to keep it locked away,
so that the heart can be empty and clear,
so that there is no feeling of hurt.
I wished it would rain more,
for then it would lighten the mask's burden,
it's watery walls,
to hide the tears dropping,
the clouds of darkness,
to hide the face of sadness,
the sound of thunder,
to hide the trembling behind the voice.
I wished i had that someone,
to hold at night when i shiver,
when i feel empty,
to share my tears with me,
who could look beyond my mask,
and take care of the broken soul within.
I've played that song not one but many times,
but it was at that moment when i looked,
did my heart feel empty,
A feeling of total emptiness filled it,
totally unexplainable.
It was then i realized,
we weren't meant to be,
that you it was not.
Signing off,
Dark Angel
Once again I had to take it out,
to put on the mask to hide,
to hide what i feel,
to hide the tears that build up everytime,
to make sure nothing is seen.
It worked, the mask,
not a drop of tear was shed,
at least not in front of people,
although it was hard,
the mask was still able,
to shield the real feelings inside,
to keep it locked away,
so that the heart can be empty and clear,
so that there is no feeling of hurt.
I wished it would rain more,
for then it would lighten the mask's burden,
it's watery walls,
to hide the tears dropping,
the clouds of darkness,
to hide the face of sadness,
the sound of thunder,
to hide the trembling behind the voice.
I wished i had that someone,
to hold at night when i shiver,
when i feel empty,
to share my tears with me,
who could look beyond my mask,
and take care of the broken soul within.
I've played that song not one but many times,
but it was at that moment when i looked,
did my heart feel empty,
A feeling of total emptiness filled it,
totally unexplainable.
It was then i realized,
we weren't meant to be,
that you it was not.
Signing off,
Dark Angel
7 days...
The 7 days of prayers and all were very tiring.
Day 1 - 2
Wake prayers.
Day 3
Funeral mass and cremation.
Day 4
Putting the ashes in the urn and putting it in the Columbarium.
Day 5 - 7
Prayers.
_______________________________________
I would really like to thank everyone who helped, cared and supported and sent their condolences to me and my family throughout the days. THANK YOU!
Now individual thanks:
Dhipajothi (my primary fren) - she was first to call me. thanks a lot Dhipa.
Class of 4SN1, students of high school & the teachers - they came in a whole group during school time to come visit me and some came in smaller groups later on. Thank you.
Chan Jia Lay and Tan Yi Von (primary frens) - they came and visit me after school. thank you. and also thanks for staying with me and chatting with me till late night. i was trying to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Venoshine, Yong Angeline, Tong Shiow Huey & Gan Chia Yan - They also came and visited me. thank you a lot.
Ng Pek He and Ng Choong Sern & their families - for making the effort of coming to give their condolences. Pek he and choong sern came more than once. THank you a lot.
Elaine Teh (my senior from stk) - She was the only ex-interactor/senior that came and visited me. Not to mention her genuine offer of help. Thank you so much.
Jason Lim - he made the effort to come even though had no transport and he came again on the day of the funeral. THank you.
Adrian Low - He helped out with all the funeral rites, procedures and everything he could. THANKS!!!
Melissa Tan (my jie jie) - for teman-ing me almost every night for the 7 nights, chatting till late night. Thanks.
Chong Ju-ann - Although she got the news late but she did me a big favor. She made sure i was okay and kept on checking on me to make sure i'm happy. Not to mention the big favor of making me promise to keep happy (you all know i keep my promises). THank you so much.
Gladys Sim - for making a bet with me to give me that extra push to continue to study no matter what. THanks
Joan Ng - also for teman-ing me for the days. chatting with me during the day to keep my mind occupied. Thank YOU!
Benazir Sim - also for chatting with me during day time to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Audrey Lee (God-ma) - temaning me, bring me out to buy clothes and help me cheer up. Thanks.
Sarah Lim - for helping out with the 7 days prayer arrangement, food and all sorts. THANK YOU!
I think that's all. Hope i didnt leave out anyone. If i did, thank you to you very much.
Day 1 - 2
Wake prayers.
Day 3
Funeral mass and cremation.
Day 4
Putting the ashes in the urn and putting it in the Columbarium.
Day 5 - 7
Prayers.
_______________________________________
I would really like to thank everyone who helped, cared and supported and sent their condolences to me and my family throughout the days. THANK YOU!
Now individual thanks:
Dhipajothi (my primary fren) - she was first to call me. thanks a lot Dhipa.
Class of 4SN1, students of high school & the teachers - they came in a whole group during school time to come visit me and some came in smaller groups later on. Thank you.
Chan Jia Lay and Tan Yi Von (primary frens) - they came and visit me after school. thank you. and also thanks for staying with me and chatting with me till late night. i was trying to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Venoshine, Yong Angeline, Tong Shiow Huey & Gan Chia Yan - They also came and visited me. thank you a lot.
Ng Pek He and Ng Choong Sern & their families - for making the effort of coming to give their condolences. Pek he and choong sern came more than once. THank you a lot.
Elaine Teh (my senior from stk) - She was the only ex-interactor/senior that came and visited me. Not to mention her genuine offer of help. Thank you so much.
Jason Lim - he made the effort to come even though had no transport and he came again on the day of the funeral. THank you.
Adrian Low - He helped out with all the funeral rites, procedures and everything he could. THANKS!!!
Melissa Tan (my jie jie) - for teman-ing me almost every night for the 7 nights, chatting till late night. Thanks.
Chong Ju-ann - Although she got the news late but she did me a big favor. She made sure i was okay and kept on checking on me to make sure i'm happy. Not to mention the big favor of making me promise to keep happy (you all know i keep my promises). THank you so much.
Gladys Sim - for making a bet with me to give me that extra push to continue to study no matter what. THanks
Joan Ng - also for teman-ing me for the days. chatting with me during the day to keep my mind occupied. Thank YOU!
Benazir Sim - also for chatting with me during day time to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Audrey Lee (God-ma) - temaning me, bring me out to buy clothes and help me cheer up. Thanks.
Sarah Lim - for helping out with the 7 days prayer arrangement, food and all sorts. THANK YOU!
I think that's all. Hope i didnt leave out anyone. If i did, thank you to you very much.
My Beloved Dad
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
I need a light!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
A limit...
Before i start, let me just say this:
even passion has a limit,
only love has no limit.
A festival the town holds, everyone was to be prepared.
Once again the peasant had to do the knight's work.
With that the last straw was broken.
No more could he stand with it and so he made a decision,
"this is the last i shall do."
On the day of the festival, a day of great 'happiness',
The peasant woke up early just to prepare the things needed.
Hoping that the knight would come and help.
No sight of him till the break of dawn, after everything was done.
Hoping the knight had come to offer his helping hand.
Apparently too high was the peasant's hope.
Angry the peasant was and so left everything.
The peasant went to enjoy himself leaving the knight's stall alone.
Only then did the knight appear once again.
The peasant did not care anymore, he never did go back there again.
Happy was the peasant the rest of the day.
Another day another task.
A task was given by the king.
To help a friend of another land.
To hold a rally it was, for the beloved youths.
Big was the knight's head. not thinking of anything.
insisted for the youth of not just his land but also of other kingdoms.
a hearing was called, the 'wise' was gathered quickly.
the peasant was there to see, how wise these people are.
only noise was heard, noise that lead to no where.
the peasant gave a suggestion, one that was wise to follow.
turn it down the knight did. saying
"i want the youth of all lands to show our greatness."
once again, angry was the peasant.
with that, the peasant stood up and said to the 'wise' and the knight.
"with you so wise people, should know you how many the youths of the other lands?
should we call all, where would they gather?
in your houses? in fact it still wouldn't fit!
You the head of the wise, the knight of this land.
had thought this i hope. for to me i see only fools in this room.
the biggest one with the suit of armor.
i say this because you have said things without first thinking,
and now you want to do things without logic.
i bid you good luck. no more shall this peasant offer his help."
The knight's daughters came to the peasant.
to seek him to help. they plead the peasant not to leave the land
"the land needs you." said one.
The peasant's passion has reached its limit,
but his love to the land is keeping him there,
no more helping with work that is not his,
it is the knight's duty,
if the knight does not want to make decision,
then the land that was once glorious shall lose its triumph,
by then the peasant would have found a new land.
even passion has a limit,
only love has no limit.
A festival the town holds, everyone was to be prepared.
Once again the peasant had to do the knight's work.
With that the last straw was broken.
No more could he stand with it and so he made a decision,
"this is the last i shall do."
On the day of the festival, a day of great 'happiness',
The peasant woke up early just to prepare the things needed.
Hoping that the knight would come and help.
No sight of him till the break of dawn, after everything was done.
Hoping the knight had come to offer his helping hand.
Apparently too high was the peasant's hope.
Angry the peasant was and so left everything.
The peasant went to enjoy himself leaving the knight's stall alone.
Only then did the knight appear once again.
The peasant did not care anymore, he never did go back there again.
Happy was the peasant the rest of the day.
Another day another task.
A task was given by the king.
To help a friend of another land.
To hold a rally it was, for the beloved youths.
Big was the knight's head. not thinking of anything.
insisted for the youth of not just his land but also of other kingdoms.
a hearing was called, the 'wise' was gathered quickly.
the peasant was there to see, how wise these people are.
only noise was heard, noise that lead to no where.
the peasant gave a suggestion, one that was wise to follow.
turn it down the knight did. saying
"i want the youth of all lands to show our greatness."
once again, angry was the peasant.
with that, the peasant stood up and said to the 'wise' and the knight.
"with you so wise people, should know you how many the youths of the other lands?
should we call all, where would they gather?
in your houses? in fact it still wouldn't fit!
You the head of the wise, the knight of this land.
had thought this i hope. for to me i see only fools in this room.
the biggest one with the suit of armor.
i say this because you have said things without first thinking,
and now you want to do things without logic.
i bid you good luck. no more shall this peasant offer his help."
The knight's daughters came to the peasant.
to seek him to help. they plead the peasant not to leave the land
"the land needs you." said one.
The peasant's passion has reached its limit,
but his love to the land is keeping him there,
no more helping with work that is not his,
it is the knight's duty,
if the knight does not want to make decision,
then the land that was once glorious shall lose its triumph,
by then the peasant would have found a new land.
