For the past days,
Once again I had to take it out,
to put on the mask to hide,
to hide what i feel,
to hide the tears that build up everytime,
to make sure nothing is seen.
It worked, the mask,
not a drop of tear was shed,
at least not in front of people,
although it was hard,
the mask was still able,
to shield the real feelings inside,
to keep it locked away,
so that the heart can be empty and clear,
so that there is no feeling of hurt.
I wished it would rain more,
for then it would lighten the mask's burden,
it's watery walls,
to hide the tears dropping,
the clouds of darkness,
to hide the face of sadness,
the sound of thunder,
to hide the trembling behind the voice.
I wished i had that someone,
to hold at night when i shiver,
when i feel empty,
to share my tears with me,
who could look beyond my mask,
and take care of the broken soul within.
I've played that song not one but many times,
but it was at that moment when i looked,
did my heart feel empty,
A feeling of total emptiness filled it,
totally unexplainable.
It was then i realized,
we weren't meant to be,
that you it was not.
Signing off,
Dark Angel
Saturday, September 26, 2009
7 days...
The 7 days of prayers and all were very tiring.
Day 1 - 2
Wake prayers.
Day 3
Funeral mass and cremation.
Day 4
Putting the ashes in the urn and putting it in the Columbarium.
Day 5 - 7
Prayers.
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I would really like to thank everyone who helped, cared and supported and sent their condolences to me and my family throughout the days. THANK YOU!
Now individual thanks:
Dhipajothi (my primary fren) - she was first to call me. thanks a lot Dhipa.
Class of 4SN1, students of high school & the teachers - they came in a whole group during school time to come visit me and some came in smaller groups later on. Thank you.
Chan Jia Lay and Tan Yi Von (primary frens) - they came and visit me after school. thank you. and also thanks for staying with me and chatting with me till late night. i was trying to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Venoshine, Yong Angeline, Tong Shiow Huey & Gan Chia Yan - They also came and visited me. thank you a lot.
Ng Pek He and Ng Choong Sern & their families - for making the effort of coming to give their condolences. Pek he and choong sern came more than once. THank you a lot.
Elaine Teh (my senior from stk) - She was the only ex-interactor/senior that came and visited me. Not to mention her genuine offer of help. Thank you so much.
Jason Lim - he made the effort to come even though had no transport and he came again on the day of the funeral. THank you.
Adrian Low - He helped out with all the funeral rites, procedures and everything he could. THANKS!!!
Melissa Tan (my jie jie) - for teman-ing me almost every night for the 7 nights, chatting till late night. Thanks.
Chong Ju-ann - Although she got the news late but she did me a big favor. She made sure i was okay and kept on checking on me to make sure i'm happy. Not to mention the big favor of making me promise to keep happy (you all know i keep my promises). THank you so much.
Gladys Sim - for making a bet with me to give me that extra push to continue to study no matter what. THanks
Joan Ng - also for teman-ing me for the days. chatting with me during the day to keep my mind occupied. Thank YOU!
Benazir Sim - also for chatting with me during day time to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Audrey Lee (God-ma) - temaning me, bring me out to buy clothes and help me cheer up. Thanks.
Sarah Lim - for helping out with the 7 days prayer arrangement, food and all sorts. THANK YOU!
I think that's all. Hope i didnt leave out anyone. If i did, thank you to you very much.
Day 1 - 2
Wake prayers.
Day 3
Funeral mass and cremation.
Day 4
Putting the ashes in the urn and putting it in the Columbarium.
Day 5 - 7
Prayers.
_______________________________________
I would really like to thank everyone who helped, cared and supported and sent their condolences to me and my family throughout the days. THANK YOU!
Now individual thanks:
Dhipajothi (my primary fren) - she was first to call me. thanks a lot Dhipa.
Class of 4SN1, students of high school & the teachers - they came in a whole group during school time to come visit me and some came in smaller groups later on. Thank you.
Chan Jia Lay and Tan Yi Von (primary frens) - they came and visit me after school. thank you. and also thanks for staying with me and chatting with me till late night. i was trying to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Venoshine, Yong Angeline, Tong Shiow Huey & Gan Chia Yan - They also came and visited me. thank you a lot.
Ng Pek He and Ng Choong Sern & their families - for making the effort of coming to give their condolences. Pek he and choong sern came more than once. THank you a lot.
Elaine Teh (my senior from stk) - She was the only ex-interactor/senior that came and visited me. Not to mention her genuine offer of help. Thank you so much.
Jason Lim - he made the effort to come even though had no transport and he came again on the day of the funeral. THank you.
Adrian Low - He helped out with all the funeral rites, procedures and everything he could. THANKS!!!
Melissa Tan (my jie jie) - for teman-ing me almost every night for the 7 nights, chatting till late night. Thanks.
Chong Ju-ann - Although she got the news late but she did me a big favor. She made sure i was okay and kept on checking on me to make sure i'm happy. Not to mention the big favor of making me promise to keep happy (you all know i keep my promises). THank you so much.
Gladys Sim - for making a bet with me to give me that extra push to continue to study no matter what. THanks
Joan Ng - also for teman-ing me for the days. chatting with me during the day to keep my mind occupied. Thank YOU!
Benazir Sim - also for chatting with me during day time to keep my mind occupied. thanks.
Audrey Lee (God-ma) - temaning me, bring me out to buy clothes and help me cheer up. Thanks.
Sarah Lim - for helping out with the 7 days prayer arrangement, food and all sorts. THANK YOU!
I think that's all. Hope i didnt leave out anyone. If i did, thank you to you very much.
